today is the 1st day of Chinese New Year 2011. This is the first time i celebrate with the absence of my grandpa. During the middle of the night, at around 3 o'clock, i saw a small brown coloured butterfly flew all the way round in my living room while i was alone there watching tv. this is not my first time watching this kind of butterfly flying in my house. i do believe that the appearance of butterfly is the sign of my grandpa coming home and visit us. since i was a little child, my grandpa used to tell me that whatever insect that is rarely appeared in house is appearing someday, the insect represents the soul of ancestor. this believing is comforted me whenever i see the butterfly coming home. when this happens i will always look at the butterfly until it disappears within my sight. In this time it comes and goes in between 10 minutes. it reminded me of grandpa and made me to miss him a lot.

during night at around 11, i saw a msg from my college friend on facebook. i was being acknowledged that my sem 2 results had come out. i immediately logged in my college's student portal and check it out and my heart beat was simultaneously getting stronger and faster. there was a maximum rush of adrenaline inside my body by the time my finger pressed into 'results and performance'. But, thanks god! i was very satisfied with my results which are far from my expectation. i got 5A's and 2B+'s with the cgpa 3.81 and current outstanding 2/26. breathed a sigh of satisfaction, this could be the best Chinese New Year gift for me and i believed it indicates a good start for 2011. If as usual, one of the very first person that i will share my good news at the very first moment will be my grandpa. when i came home from my granny house i hide myself in my room and i started to recall the memories of those time i shared my results with him. i know i could make him proud of being my grandpa by having me as his grandson. Our ever last results celebration is my first-ever college's results. It happened in the mid of 2010. every celebration that we had gone through together is still a vivid picture inside me. starts from now, i will be forever lacking him to celebrate all my victories and happiness. In spite of that, i will still give all my best in every attempt because i want him to be proud again.